I've never told a lie

and that makes me a liar
I've never made a bet, but we gamble with desire.
I've never lit a match with intent to start a fire,
but recently the flames are getting out of control.
Call me a name, kill me with words. Forget about me,
it's what I deserve.

I am so relieved to have my finals done, although I cringe when I think of my English grade. =/
Its feels nice, just to let everything go and enjoy the moment. Its right; you never know if you'll see tomorrow and while its nice to hope and plan to see tomorrow, you should still enjoy the moment.
I'm slowly learning this. I used to rely so heavily on the future, but with talk of the world ending, or ending as we know it, in 2012, well that wouldn't be much of a future to hope for. It scares me and depresses me to think about that, so I try not to. I just feel that I would be so cheated, out of all that could have been. Strangely, as I think of this as I am typing, I feel fine. Maybe its because I'm listening to ATL, Taylor singing and NickJr haha.
I'm really happy for Mel. That's wonderful and she deserves happiness.